So this is what I wore yesterday but shot long time ago. The combination of high sandals and bigger pants don’t leave me. The sun is shining again today and I’m so grateful. I’ve been so sick with a flu and weather getting cold , That i spent half of my week in bed just sleeping and trying to breath properly.
Also this post is dedicated to a special someone, I wanted to let him know about how I am feeling so I won’t be talking about my detailed outfits:
I want you to fill the wholes of my soul that have been carved by your absence.
I often wonder if you only want me while I’m getting over you, finding something else to consume than your skin on my lips.
I often wonder if you didn’t have to worry about your status, what you meant to the world, what the world expected of you, I wonder if you would surrender to you like I surrender to her.
Her stimulating touch that substitutes my hunger for you.
I want you like I’ll never get enough, l I’m overdosing on the thought of having had you, and losing you.
Losing to each hit, each blow, each breathe is painful without you.
Because secretly, I know you love me.
Maybe not like I do. Maybe more than I can imagine. But you chose the honour of your family like a noble knight, rather than the happiness of my days, and the treasures of my nights.
You lost me, when you hesitated.
I’m not to be feared, I’m to be loved.
I’m to be consumed wholly.
I’m holly, sacred and rare.
Like pure cocaine.
Illegal but blissful.
Boosting your ego, because I’m so goddamn pretty.
But you chose to stay clean, Saint and pure.
And I’m dirty with humanity.
I’ll sniff away my sorrow, you can regret what could have been the happiest love of your life.
Goodbye my love. Call on Valerie she’ll never be me.
My inspiration for this style comes from Maja :