I am 31, no job, no boyfriend or partner and I am lonely. Not the kind of lonely you would imagine.
I used to imagine my life differently, of course, because we grow up in an environment were since your childhood everything is dictated. Prefect childhood with my family, travelling and not worrying about anything. Great high school than you university, of course. Truly had a privileged life, but you know what deep down I was never at the right place.
And why? Because I never really knew what it wanted to become, study or do… than with age, you start seeing everyone around you getting married, having kids and all settling and yourself, you are still a life purpose searching, you are ashamed of not being like most of your friends and not wanting the same path. but man it’s ok!!! Yes, it is.
I tried to escape my unhappy reality by going to the easy path, wrong entourage, giving up on people who cared and partying like there was no tomorrow! I was constantly comparing myself to others, trough facebook and instagram.
Guess what?it took me more than 10 years to finally accept that I don’t have to follow what my family, entourage and environment impose me. I can be 31 and be single, travelling, still discovering myself without feeling sad because I don’t fit in the perfect life picture that we are taught since we are kids we should be!
Loneliness, suffering truly helped me become who I am today and I keep repeating it but,
I have never been so aligned and in peace with myself because I do everything every day to be the best version of myself, I learn about my emotions, I listen so my body and I enjoy myself by doing only things that I LOVE, ENJOY and make MYSELF happy. No one else but YOU can give you this sensation and this is why a lot of people are unhappy in life, in relationships because they seek on something, in someone what is inside of them.
I am alone, but I believe in the universe:). Everything will happen in the perfect TIMING, no more rush, questioning or PAIN.
My journey, job and soulmate will come to me without me expecting it.
Love and light xoxo.